howdy do?

:))))))))))))) fine! no low lows, no high highs. jussst fine! ;)
living like a princess...how bad can it be? ;) ... to earn a life, nothing to sell, nothing to buy.
haha!...it feels great! ;)

shayad k is terha hi

ander k andheroan se

nikal ker,

sooraj ki zameen waloan ki dunia mein

gher banaoon.

khush-rang

khanaktey hoay

in khokhley rishtoan ki ladee mein hi,

piro loan khod ko.

.

shayad...

.

shayad k is terha hi,

andheroan k chamaktey hoye

rangeen saveroan mein,

ik aur andheray ko

mita paoon,

"bhool jaoon",

ander k andheroan se

nikal aaon.

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doggie handles

handling dogs? no problem! ;)

"Legends of the Hair Fall"

Max Levine

http://www.temple.edu/photo/basic/fall04/week7/hair.html

oh! tender heart

they "cold eyes", you tender heart

their touch caught you off guard

you tossed n turned till it turned you

in to... a "glistening shard"

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maya

vanishing potion

vanishin in to thin air;

tell me if theres a potion

ill turn in to dew drops

n merge in to the ocean

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a similar expression

I found this painting of Irving tonight, n amazingly it appears to be holding the same expression that ive tried to render in the "untitled" (previous post),

so I suppose it is "the title" for it :)

'keep your "eyes" off me!'

(The Woman with a Shadow,46 X 48 Inches,Acrylic on Canvas by L. L. Irving)

http://lila-lewis-irving.abbozzogallery.com/lewis-irving-works.htm

untitled

your "lights" hurt my eyes

your "eyes" hurt my soul

your "wish" tears my heart

therein, makes a hole

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let me go!

i wish i were unseen

i wish i were unheard

i wish i were unfelt

i wish i were unknown

i wish...oh!,let me be!

i wish...oh! let me go!

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http://www.picturejungle.com/store/itemdetail.asp?id=60954

oops!

: I lost my tempolate :(((((((((((((((((
mmmmmmmmmmmmm , my dear old template :(((((((((

...me. :( today!

ahm

this was me, two days back.

whatever!

I myself dont really know the truth of it,( or may be I dont wanna know). Still, this moment, I couldnt come up with any thing else, thats it, n thats all. I-)

theher gayee, samey k dhaaray per
bohat be-rabt si ik saans,
...aur kuch taabeerein

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Of the Friend, the Hermit, n Me

the bigger the crowd is getting around me, the more Im turning in to a loner. (I hope no body who knows me there, reads me here). at least for sometime, I can be with myself, I can even cry, while no ones watching :D

Past few days have been like out of a soap opera :D n how much I hate it, I know. The sane me hardly ever lets out that tragedy queen inside. Though I get involved in every moment, n every thought. These days Im just reading , listening, feeling, which obviously means an overdose of peotry, thoughts n ghazals. 8) Im just chewing over random stuff. cant get my energies to work. Im just so drained, so quiet. Also, I dont want "them" to know this hermit, so better get over it soon. ;)

"I and Me are always two earnestly in conversation with one another: how could it be endured, if there were not a friend?

For the hermit the friend is always the third person: the third person is the cork that prevents the conversation of the other two from sinking to the depths.

Alas, for all hermits there are too many depths. That is why they long so much for a friend and for his heights.

our faith in others betrays wherein we would dearly like to have faith in ourselves. Our longing for a friend is our betrayer."

(from: Of The Friend, Zarathustra's Discourses, by F. Nietzsche)

...

"spring has sprung" as they say in the blue house.

...

Im a hard nut to crack , but once cracked, all squishy mooshy ;)

I wonder if I never had this strength to me, how would I'v survived with all this critical sensitivity. I thank God that I can still manage to think straight, afterall, no matter what temptations, no matter how slippery it gets. I thank God for making me whatever a hard nut I am :D . Also, I thank God , for giving me such loving relations. Its thier prayers that really keep me safe, or I wouldv lost it long time ago.

Another thing Iv noticed these days is that Im getting more superstitious. I believe every wish , every emotion, every strong feeling, has a power to it, so strong that at times it cant help but effecting the concerned person, as they say:

dil se jo aah nikaltee hai, asr rakhtee hai

nahin hai taqat-e-perwaaz mager , per rakhtee hai

(yeah yeah I may have screwed this couplet a lil bit ;) but still, it is something like that, u know)

If there are prayers, there are curses too; duaa, badua, aah, nazer, all are there. These are all subject to our deeds, the way we treat people, the way we touch thier hearts, and consequently the way they inturn feel about us.

Unintentionally, or not knowingly, I might have hurt people, or have made them feel bad, for reasons what so ever. (I pray it never happens again). But, the love of my loved ones has always been greater than that, it shielded me from every blow.(Alhamdolillah). Thier prayers have been my safeguard always. I pray it ramain like that forever...and I pray I never lose thier warm touch, ever...

Rubaiyat of Umer Khayyam

There was a Door
to which I found no Key:
There was a Veil past
which I could not see:
some little talk awile of Me and Thee
There seem'd -- and then no more
of Thee and Me.
*

For in and out, above, about, below,
'Tis nothing but a Magic Shadow-show,
Play'd in a Box
whose Candle is the Sun,
Round which we Phantom Figures
come and go.
*

And if the Wine you drink,
the Lip you press
End in the Nothing all Things
end in -- Yes --
Then fancy while Thou art,
Thou art but what
Thou shalt be -- Nothing --
Thou shalt not be less.
*

...Of Relations n Ransoms

… he was there with all his longing heart ..... but, she was not. To all her sorrow, she saw it coming, but he did'nt.

Why every realation whatsoever does tries to hold you for ransom?
Heart: I don’t know why it can’t work without the longings n desires. Why does it always have to kill the goose? Why does it always have to get greedy, to hold? Don’t know why it hardly lets the spirit share for no reasons…when it’s not to be possessed, when it’s just to be shared.

..... and so, a spirit departed … and so, she lost a friend.

generations

"kal aur aaj" at our service,

(baba g now retired, used to be our very own "the 10" bicep man", when we had just joined the gang, n he had just won the "mr archi contest", among all those he-men n hunks. :D... )

The shy girl

...

hm, i dont feel like talking, the last two days have been nerve wrecking, no escape, no rest, no meals, just a single samosa to last me through the day :( , working from 9 am to 11 pm, rushing from office to university...

... ohh God! those four long hours of waiting for a single drawing to get plotted, n still in vain, I returned home at 11:30 pm with no master plan drg., n no hopes lefts for the presentation next morning. : It was really a nightmare. ive been through tough times , but this time it was unbelivable, literally hardluck for me.

but thanx God , finally I had my turn at 6:30 pm today, n it went well. all over now. hmmmmmmmmmm thanx nana, thanx mom, for being there all this time, for all your prayers, n mom for your "damm ka pani" :) . you never let me go out without it haina? :) "pani pi k jana! chotee ko bhi kehna pee le! wahin na pada reh jaye! bhoolna nahin!!!"

"aaj ki duaan"

(a moment of parayers)

"But none is granted it save those who are steadfast, and none is granted it save the owner of great happiness. "(chapter: 41,verse: 35: )

"If Allah touch thee with affliction, none can remove it but He; if He touch thee with happiness, He hath power over all things. " (Chapter: 6, Verse: 17:)

"And as for man, when his Lord tries him, then treats him with honor and makes him lead an easy life, he says: My Lord honors me. "(Chapter: 80, Verse: 25)

"For the unbelievers, anything but easy." (Chapter: 74, Verse: 10)

"He said: O my Lord! Expand my breast for me,

And make my affairs easy for me,

And loose the knot from my tongue,

(That) they may understand my word;"(chapter: 20, verses: 25, 26, 27, 28)

The Holy Quran

amazingly pathetic!

huh! life, your so mean. again u played a trick on me. where do i go? where to turn to? what a life! the more I try to simplify, the more complex it gets. ahh the miracle, when it was to happen it never did..... and now... its like when theres a pizza delivery on a wrong address. It isnt yours, but you dont even have the heart to turn it away. It seems like im losing mysense of humour now.

ik dua, derd ki bhi

i was having some random thoughts, so just jotted them down... :)

"wo aisa soz jo de derd, phir dava bhi karey
wo aisa saaz, jo thamey, tou khamashee mein dhaley
*
wo aisa safr-e-natamman, jo rukey na baney
wo aisa dasht, jo guzrey tou saibaan utrey
*
wo aisa asr ho, k khud se be-aser ker de
wo aisa sehr, jo tootey tou moujaza nikley"

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