Monday, September 26, 2011

yours truly

You believe that you deceived me.
In your anxiousness, you never for a moment thought that why i never questioned your lies, and why i never suspected you. My darling, I always knew. Not from the begining, but with time, i came to know.....  Do you remember that when ever you gave me your lame excuses, i always looked away from you?
Dear, I never wanted to embarass you. I wanted you to understand the meaning of self respect. You could've changed everything that had brought you curse in the past. Sadly, you dint get that.

In your constant effort to cover up yourself, your tainted past and your deceitful present, you never realised why i really kept supporting you. The truth never needs to be said or told. It unfolds itself when your busy lying. People who have human feelings and values are always considered weak emotional fools. But whose the fool?...now you tell me. Dear, you can never fool a parent or a partner.
You only deceived yourself.

Sunday, September 25, 2011

swim upstream only when youve got conviction.

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

"sadness deepens when one finds oneself all alone"... she murmured and sighed.

Coming from a newlywed bride, its sad but it isn't that strange in our part of the world.
Why does marriage leaves a woman with nothing but melancholy and loneliness?
Why does a supposed to be sweet partnership turns into a sullen solitary confinement for her?

Our average over demanding desi husband is only looking for a kitchen queen-cum-rubber doll whose at his and his family's twenty-four hour service. He never cares to think how she survived after trading her life, her identity, and even her self-esteem for him and his support and companionship. Mechanical sex and a few babies is all he grants her...and a life time of emptiness is all shes really left with.

Monday, September 19, 2011

excerpt from khalil Jibran's


"
your sickness is also your medicine, because
love 
to the soul is as wine in a glass _ what you
see is 
liquid, 
what is hidden is its 
spirit.
for heaven's sake, my heart, conceal your troubles;
then, should the seas roar and the skies fall,
you will be safe."

Saturday, September 17, 2011

The Life After

I went through death in life. 
In the way, I lost my sense and sensibilities...all words, all tunes. Everything along with myself was swept away in a moment in time. 
Now, I find my estranged self again lying in space and time ,unknown.

Sunday, September 03, 2006

.....more scraps

"ESCAPES"

fears...
uncertainit0ies...
doubts...
failures...
all prevail...
devour the soul...
n choke me to death
.....
when love is not enough.
.....
from here to there
wandering in nowhere
this empty cup...brings to me;
shame...
silence...
all curse...
.....
when love is not enough.
.....
open any window
unlock all doors
no breeze would enter
no air in flow
when its wrapped up inside
in layers of escapes
no life would touch...
when the cup's half empty
.....
when love is not enough.
.....

_____________________________* 20-05-06
_________flick-scraps___________the lost scripts__________
TO KNOW & TO BE KNOWN.....
TRYING TO BREATHE IN ALL THE LIFE AROUND
WHILE WAITING TO BE TAKEN IN.....
BY THE WHOLE
ALWAYS TRYING FOR THE ONENESS...
...LIKE EACH COLOR,
WAITING FOR THE LIGHT.....

YOU ARE LIKE A POEM
SOME WORDS ARE THERE,
THE REST, UNKNOWN...

THE MOMENT I THINK...
I GOT IT!...
...THE MOMENT...
I LOSE IT.....

NINE LIVES WONT EVEN BE ENOUGH,
TO KNOW.....
ECSTATIC IS THE MOMENT
WHEN I THINK I KNOW...
WHEN I THINK IM THERE...
...I THINK I'M HOME
.....
JUST THEN IM PUSHED OUT...
ONCE AGAIN
...IN TO THE WILDERNESS...
...INTO THE UNKNOWN.....

...THERE I DIE
...THERE I'M BORN.

.....

_____flick-scraps_____the lost scripts_______________________________*written: 27-04-06