yours truly

You believe that you deceived me.
In your anxiousness, you never for a moment thought that why i never questioned your lies, and why i never suspected you. My darling, I always knew. Not from the begining, but with time, i came to know.....  Do you remember that when ever you gave me your lame excuses, i always looked away from you?
Dear, I never wanted to embarass you. I wanted you to understand the meaning of self respect. You could've changed everything that had brought you curse in the past. Sadly, you dint get that.

In your constant effort to cover up yourself, your tainted past and your deceitful present, you never realised why i really kept supporting you. The truth never needs to be said or told. It unfolds itself when your busy lying. People who have human feelings and values are always considered weak emotional fools. But whose the fool?...now you tell me. Dear, you can never fool a parent or a partner.
You only deceived yourself.

swim upstream only when youve got conviction.

"sadness deepens when one finds oneself all alone"... she murmured and sighed.

Coming from a newlywed bride, its sad but it isn't that strange in our part of the world.
Why does marriage leaves a woman with nothing but melancholy and loneliness?
Why does a supposed to be sweet partnership turns into a sullen solitary confinement for her?

Our average over demanding desi husband is only looking for a kitchen queen-cum-rubber doll whose at his and his family's twenty-four hour service. He never cares to think how she survived after trading her life, her identity, and even her self-esteem for him and his support and companionship. Mechanical sex and a few babies is all he grants her...and a life time of emptiness is all shes really left with.

excerpt from khalil Jibran's

"

your sickness is also your medicine, because

love 

to the soul is as wine in a glass _ what you

see is 

liquid, 

what is hidden is its 

spirit.

for heaven's sake, my heart, conceal your troubles;

then, should the seas roar and the skies fall,

you will be safe."

The Life After

I went through death in life. 

In the way, I lost my sense and sensibilities...all words, all tunes. Everything along with myself was swept away in a moment in time. 

Now, I find my estranged self again lying in space and time ,unknown.