from a pragmatic person , ive turned in to a highly emotional being. this year transformed me completely. may be im sick. i never lost my focus like this before.

right now i feel lonely, i wanna talk endlessly, insanely, about nothing n everything...like a stupid chatter box. not that i dont do it at all, but its not enough, n there isnt really anybody else except my mother who approves of my childish endeavors, shes fun, but still i cant say all that rubbish to her, shes mom afterall. : n friends...hm they're all so grown ups, busy meeting deadlines, earning bucks , we hardly get the time now to get together n share our lives.

he's a friend too, but one thing about him always repelled me. i feel that he always trys to prove things, to himself, n to others, though modest on the outside, he does things for the sake of achievement. may be im taking it all wrong, but i ve never felt comfortable with him for that. may be its just my cynicism against name n fame.

when ever nana jee calls he asks me about just everything, including, the trick question, what type of a guy i want...then he'd tell me about the wonderful guys he woudve met, n everything else my mom had told him. im just as clueless as him. i havnt met anybody , whom i could spend the rest of my life with. to love is easy, but to bear it, is the toughest part. compatibility is a serious issue, when it comes to sharing life, practically.